Good Things

This post.

I see myself as a creative person, a happy, loveable go-getter person. Lately I have been in  a slump, and I am the one to blame. I let myself. What I am talking about is the fact that I like my job, but I am not in love with it. I dread the work week... and I don't want to. I have my Bachelor's degree in Business Management. I learned a lot of valuable skills/lessons about the corporate world, but I don't necessarily think I want to spend my days pouring over accounting logs, IT desks, and fielding support questions. I got a Business degree because it was safe and the thing to do, not because I was in love with the idea. My main thought process was $$$$$$! Little did I know that everyone and their mother gets a degree in the same field for the very same reasoning, and are far more successful. Partly due to the fact they care about it, and partly because they have a drive and passion for it. That is something I apparently lack.

I don't want to be good at something, I want to be great at it. It is never going to be traditional business... it is never going to be for a company that I don't have interest in. My passions are reading, writing, clothes, beauty, design, art, dance, music. Question is, how do I make a career out of that... and why did I not just follow my heart 5 years ago? Why was I dead set on a rigid life? I don't have an answer, but I think I know how to fix it now.

I want to go back to school.. not for my MBA like everyone expects, or even as I had originally intended. I want to get a degree... any degree, in Graphic Design. I was just bored, frustrated and confused so I decided to take a look at the local community college's listings for classes, and I ran accross this..here are some of the classes that I could expect: drawing, computer graphics, art, multimedia design, photography, painting, small business development... yeah those are things I can roll with!

The only problem is I work and have to work a full time job. These classes are only during the day... I am stuck and I have no idea what to do or how to get what I want, but I will do it.

I just know that putting one step in front of the other towards this goal will ensure a future that I can live with and not dread... I could boost an online career, start my own design company, do free-lance work for local businesses and campaigns, event planning, interior design. The possibilities are endless and I want to pursue them.

All I know is I don't want to feel trapped anymore, and noone should feel like that. My advice: Don't stop, never underestimate yourself because that just allows others to, do what you love otherwise you will never be truly happy, and most of all work hard. No one ever got anywhere without determination... it may take you a while to find it, but when you do, never let go.

xoxo